Years ago I heard the song “The greatest love of all” by Whitney Houston. I used to love listening to it. Until one day I just thought of trying it out.
My brain told me,”It is only a song. Not gospel. You don’t start living life using pop songs.”
I was very young. Just entered college. My heart told me,”Try it out. Now is the time. Do crazy things.”
I did. Every day I would tell myself, “I love you. You are actually a wonderful person.”
This love affair became my greatest secret.
I would spend 10 minutes with myself everyday. Telling myself all the good things which I had done.
“Listen, you did an act of kindness today. You were the only one who sat with that student who had badly injured himself playing cricket. You’re a good person.”
As young people, we often come under peer pressure. We also tend to internalise what our seniors, even what our professors say about us.
One of my aunts would often tell me, “You’re very strange looking. Your face has a strange face cut.”
She would say it often and I would believe it often. I didn’t realise that this self disbelief was a cause of my extreme stage fright.
When I fell in love, I looked at the mirror one day and said
“Let us analyse this feeling objectively. Firstly, is she some internationally acclaimed judge on looks? I mean just look at her. Look at her own children“
Then I realised that she was jealous. I also felt empathy for her. For the first time in my life.
“You’re good looking young fellow,” I told myself
After six months I won my first national level debate.
I lost weight, became the best all-rounder in engineering college.
Try out this love affair with yourself.
It works like magic.