Many seekers ask this question
“Will we all, one day merge into the creative oneness, the omnipotence? Will I exist then or will there be no me?”
I must say that this very thought used to scare me to terror, many years ago. So much so that I really didn’t want any self realisation if it meant obliterating myself to this point.
Thankfully, a really great teacher answered my query.
The term ‘merging into oneness’ or ‘obliteration’ is to be interpreted more through allegory than through our prism of science. Being a science student, my concept of merger was akin to what a black hole does to stars. It just ends them. As if they never existed.
Yet, the omniscience isn’t a black hole, I was told!
The oft cited example of being only a drop in the ocean isn’t actually true, if we see the ocean as one single being. It was explained to me that as humans, we see duality. Myself as being different from other people and forces. This concept is known as “haumae” in Indian culture. ‘Ego’ as some translate it.
Yet ‘Ego’ or ‘haumae’ are very different from being ‘egoist’.
Scriptures point out that even the humblest of people in the world may be filled with ‘ego’ or ‘haumae’.
Nimakh nimakh kar shareer katae, to bhi haumae mael naa javaae.”
(Even if we make ourselves equivalent to dust and slowly cut our body into pieces, still the dirt of ego does not leave us)
Because, the ego actually implies duality in spiritual parlance. A perception and belief in a different me and different others.
As we practice the meditation of surrender, the Bhakti(with love in my heart, surrender to the divinity within), our awareness of the truth, the singularity of the creation becomes more profound. It is a deep realisation, not mere words. I understand my true nature, my own infiniteness, my place and my true lofty self. When this happens, I am free from the cycle of birth and death. I have, as they transcended or merged with the one source, the Universe.
It isn’t a physical union. Rather a realisation of my own infinity. I remain aware of my own personality, my own self. Yet I also know of that oneness of which I am.
It is the best of both worlds.
The duality perception vanishes.
The merger is only in the knowing, not corporeal.
So friends go ahead and pursue self-realisation. It’s a great place to be.